“O Sacred heart of Jesus I place my trust in you” –
As far back as I can recall we had the Sacred Heart Messenger in our house. I was always drawn to letters of thanksgiving. I was quiet intrigued to hear the miraculous healings and prayers answered as a result of trusting in the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I didn’t stop to think we too, had many miracles in our house and when in need, we often uttered the words- “Jesus I Trust in you”. Though, I’m not so sure if we acknowledged Jesus as much as we could have, when our prayers were answered.
The Sacred Heart held a prominent position with a votive light, as did a large statue of Holy Mary and as children; we took great delight in decorating the May altar. It was a very simple faith and our parents were wonderful role models in passing on the faith to us. We said the rosary every night as a family and went to confession. I firmly believed in God. Before my leaving cert, I got Bell’s palsy and found it very difficult to study. Again the Sacred Heart came up trumps and despite having little time to study, I achieved good results. I had a great circle of friends and social life. However, I had a desperate experience during my first year at college and no matter how I tried to mask the pain, it haunted me. The busier I became, the less time I had to think so I achieved a post-grad, a masters and was involved in and running many social and sports clubs. I was very determined and kept pushing myself to do more. I went to Sunday mass but that was it. I was in the driving seat and Jesus let me down as far as I was concerned, I was doing it all, however I wasn’t sleeping and was having recurring nightmares.
During college I was going out with a local chap who I was very fond of, we decided to go our separate ways. I travelled to Australia to get away from it all. To the world I was a social butterfly but inside I was a wreck. I had become quite self-centred and I read every self-help book to try to find some peace. Finally I put my hands up and admitted I’d lost my way. I turned to Our Lady as a mother and begged her to help me. I started to say the rosary and found myself reading books about Padre Pio, St Francis and St. Therese. I always had devotion to St. Anthony (because I’d loose things) and prayed to him. But I found it hard to pray to Jesus and God the Father. I went to Medjugorje and thought it was lovely but couldn’t say I had an experience (My sister had had a great healing there) then things began to happen. I went to Dublin to see Ivan, the visionary and being sceptical I said to myself- “Ill watch this lad’s face during the apparition to see if he’s really seeing Our Lady”. Alas, I never got the chance as I rested in the spirit when Our Lady appeared. When I came to, I couldn’t stop smiling. I was filled with immense joy.
Afterwards, I was sent many good Samaritans in the form of people who spent time praying with me. I had my memories healed through Jesus and slowly my life began to turn around. It was painful at times and involved much reform on my part and much prayer from my good friends. Mass and prayers became important to me. In June 2007, I turned to the Sacred Heart and said a novena for a special intention and it was answered on the final day of the novena. I couldn’t believe it. Finally in June 2009, I turned once more to the Sacred Heart and asked Jesus to find a husband for me. Well on the last day of that novena, I was on my way to mass in the graveyard and just uttered the words “Well that didn’t work did it?” when a message came through on my phone. Out of the blue, the man I had gone out with years before contacted me. We were engaged that Christmas and married on Easter Monday. On my way to the altar, I experienced the same intense joy, I had experienced the night that I rested in the spirit. Every day is a great gift and in every new challenge I try to say – “Jesus I place my trust in you”. Finally I was privileged to add my thank you to the numerous advocates of the Sacred Heart Messenger-
This is a well-overdue thank you to the Sacred Heart, who gave me great parents, who passed on the gift of faith to me. He helped me through difficult times when I lost my way. He healed my hurts, sent me numerous people to help me and found me a wonderful friend and husband. He continues to guide me every day and so with great confidence and thanks I say “O Sacred heart of Jesus I place my trust in you”